because i don't need boxes wrapped in strings

3 more days to kL trip , how come i'm feeling more worried than excited? because i have no idea at all what is going on..
it's been hard times, lately esp on money. the very first paychecks seem to be gone even before they arrive. the bills carry amounts larger than the month before. i never wanted this life to be about money. i vowed to never be consumed by consumerism. i don't know how i dug myself the hole in which i lie but looking up, the sun seems much too far away.

i cried a little too much today and i wonder why. for the smallest things that happened, i seems to be burried in agony. the tears flowed but you know is just another fresh start.

i'm feeling pretty tired these days. every day, i work, i play as usual shop as usual. it's been fun really. work is fun. life is fun. how come all these fun cells doesnt stay for long as my energy drain away from my physical being?

tomorrow's xmas eve. am i going to be at orchard? nope. i guess not or maybe. the plans are still in consideration. bringing mum and grandma to watch dawn's perfomance till 9p.m. then maybe me and him shall catch a movie, drive to our fav you tiao place and count down there lol. but whatever it is. is something sweet, nice and cosy for the both of us. a ho ho ho xmas for us (: